Sigh. Where do I even start. It's been quite a roller coaster of a weekend. Today was Easter, a very happy holiday by all accounts. Whether you are in it for the redemption or the chocolate, either way, its all good. But there was no joy in Mudville as they say, this morning in our house.
It all started with Easter plans. One of the things I like about Easter traditions is the Easter Bonnet thing. You know, getting new clothes. I like clothes, what can I say. So I popped out to the mall before the weekend to get a few new things for the boys. The New Baby's Easter outfit was 75% hand-me-downs, which is all good, but the Little Dude has grown out of everything lately, so he needed new church pants, and I thought a cute new shirt would be in order too. Luck was with me and I found the perfect thing on the sale rack, so we were all set. I have a blouse in my cupboard that not only flattering, but is also breast feeding friendly, and when paired with a clothing-swap skirt would look like new, and Hubs has a plaid shirt we got at post Christmas sales that he's hardly worn, so we were good to go too. But looking around at my little family, I realized that the Little Dude is looking a bit too shaggy these days. He really does have magnificent hair - the curls that I spent my whole life wishing for have somehow shown up on my little boy - but its perhaps gotten a smidge too long, and is all wispy and flyaway lately, so I thought it best to make an appointment with the hairdresser for his first real cut.
However, I was foiled. I put it off a bit too late, and there were no more appointments to be had. But luckily Hubs offered to do it. He's done a little bit of trimming on L.D. here and there before, so that'll work. Right?
Can you see where I am going with this?
It was the end of a long day on Saturday night, and Hubs decided to cut the Little Dude's hair while he took a bath. That way he'd be distracted and its easier to work with wet hair. Good plan. I went to put the New Baby to bed and left Hubs to it. Once the baby was down I had a quick peek into the bathroom where all was well, and then headed off to do some dishes and tidy the upstairs play room. Eventually I heard the water draining out of the tub and headed back down to the bathroom to see how it'd gone.
It had not gone well.
(The carnage in the wastebasket)
I walked in and Hubs was tidying up the towels, and trying to cajole L.D. out of the bathtub. At least, I think it was L.D. He was responding to his name and seemed to think Hubs was his father, but who could say, as he was clearly A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT CHILD!
It took me a minute. Oh. That must be my son. He sounds like my son. But he looks like LITTLE ORPHAN ANNIE. Because he has VERY SHORT, curly red hair.
Deep breaths.
I know enough not to freak out in front of my child. So I helped him out of the tub and started to get his pyjamas on him. All the while shooting daggers out of my eyes at my husband. "Its a little short." I said, with great restraint. "Its not that easy to cut his hair. He's very squirmy" Hubs responded. "Well, maybe you should have stopped then." I said. "I tried to call you, didn't you hear me?" Asked Hubs. Obviously not.
We got the Little Dude into his pyjamas, read a couple of stories and put him to bed. And then proceeded to have World War III in the living room. I was on the side of How Could You Have Butchered His Hair Like That? And Hubs was on the side of Why Are You Making Such A Big Deal About This? As you can imagine, a truce was not possible until some time later. We went to bed both sad and resigned, hoping for better things in the morning. After all, I only saw it wet. Maybe it would be better dry.
Hubs got up first, on hearing L.D. calling from his room, and took him to the potty. I also heard water running and the drawers opening and closing. Hubs was attempting to style his hair. I was afraid to go and look. Eventually I heard the Little Dude run off to play, and Hubs came back to our room. He sat on the edge of the bed. He look at me. And he said, "I'm sorry." Which are welcome words of course, but in this instance I knew that it meant that he now saw what I saw last night. Which was very. short. hair. I couldn't be angry any more, because now he was sad too, which somehow makes everything a little bit better. So, I got up, fed the Baby and went out to the kitchen to make waffles. Because in a situation like this, waffles are absolutely necessary.
Anyhow, we got dressed and went to church, and nobody else seemed as upset about it as I was. I didn't go around telling people I was upset either, because that never helps. And he still looked really, really cute in his new shirt and little blazer and khaki pants. But look, here's how it used to look:
All gorgeous and golden with big springy ringlets that you could wind around your finger.
And here's how it looks now:
See? That is short. That is some short hair.
Here's a closer shot: 
Here it is in the front: 
So. Am I over reacting? Last night it seemed very, very bad. I had to call a friend and my sister to talk me down off the ledge before I even talked to Hubs about it (or else I think I would have said some bad, hurtful things), and I (wisely) decided not to blog that night, though I wrote a very angry post in my head. But it would have been a bad idea to post in anger. And both my friend and my sister and my mom said "Hair grows back." Which, though obviously true was of little comfort at the time. Because my baby's hair is gone. He cut my baby's hair. And it was not just a trim. It completely changes the character of his face. And its not that I'm upset because he looks more grown up. I know he's growing up. I encourage him to grow up. I empower him, and cheer him on when he does things on his own. I dress him in clothes that make him look like a boy, not a baby. I let him use hammers and dish up his own applesauce. I'm not trying to hold him back. Its just.... I don't know. It just really sucked to walk into the bathroom last night and see his beautiful hair cut away.
We had a nice day though. There was happy music at church and Easter Eggs and cousins all afternoon. And after a whole day of seeing him with his new hair its starting to look familiar. Its starting to become him. And I'm starting to get over it.
And of course, its not bothering him in any way at all. For all he cares we could give him the same haircut as his uncle (seen on the right in the picture above) and he wouldn't bat an eyelash. So long as there is still sand in the sand box and grapes in the fridge he'll be a happy boy. I wish I could say the same. It'll grow back, right? It'll grow back.